Whitney Had Fight...
MTV: Whitney Houston Says To Oprah, 'I Always Had A Fight In Me'
Houston candidly speaks to Winfrey about her divorce, drugs and her musical
By Jocelyn Vena
Sep 15 2009 5:50 PM EDT
Whitney Houston remained
candid in the second part of her interview with Oprah Winfrey on Tuesday
(September 15), speaking out about her drug addictions, her divorce from
Bobby Brown, her daughter, Bobbi Kristina, and why she felt the desire once
again to get back into the music industry.
Houston, who also performed during her appearance on "The Oprah Winfrey
Show," said that she needed to figure out what her next move would be after
she left her husband. "I had to get to the point where I had to make the
choice and that one day came and I left," she said, revealing that she told
Bobby she was going out for sugar and "I never came back and I went to L.A.
I made some moves and then I took [daughter Bobbi Kristina] with me to
She also revealed that she had been separated from Brown for some time
before anyone knew that the two were divorcing. "I had left, but nobody
really knew. [My daughter] saw enough — the spitting in the face was
enough," she said. "I wasn't going to be in an unholy matrimony. I wanted it
to stop at that point — the drugs and everything — and I wanted [the evil]
out and I was praying hard and my mother stepped in and she said, 'Let it
go.' You can't play [my mom] Cissy, and she said , 'I'm not giving you up.'
Bobbi Kristina supported the decision to divorce and for her mother to get
her life back on track. "I went to California — I got me a little home there
in Laguna. I got with a counselor, my friend who just helps people," she
recalled, adding that eventually her daughter found out about Brown's
"She was like, 'Mom, this is dad?' And I was like, 'Yeah, OK [it is].' And
she saw him [with the other women] and just crazy things. She said, 'No,
divorce him. Just let him go.' She said, 'You don't deserve that and neither
do I.' "
Houston shared that she quit using drugs, but that every day is a struggle.
"I mean, don't think I don't have desires for it," she said. "There are
times when it takes a minute to cleanse, get off me — I have to pray it
away. I have a drink every now and then ... don't get me wrong — that was
not an issue for me. Oprah, one day at a time. Right now, no [I don't want
drugs]. If ever I get low, I get weak, I know where I can go. I know where I
can run to. And I know that God loves me. He loves me. I love the spirit of
God so much. I'm not trading that for nothing."
She also knew she'd never trade in her career. Even at her lowest, she
always knew that she had it in her to keep going and make music again. "You
know what for some reason, Oprah, I never got to that point — something
always had a fight in me," she said. "I always had a fight in me."
15 SEPTEMBER 2009