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MTV: Whitney Houston Says To Oprah, 'I Always Had A Fight In Me'
Houston candidly speaks to Winfrey about her divorce, drugs and her musical comeback.
By Jocelyn Vena
Sep 15 2009 5:50 PM EDT

Whitney Houston remained candid in the second part of her interview with Oprah Winfrey on Tuesday (September 15), speaking out about her drug addictions, her divorce from Bobby Brown, her daughter, Bobbi Kristina, and why she felt the desire once again to get back into the music industry.

Houston, who also performed during her appearance on "The Oprah Winfrey Show," said that she needed to figure out what her next move would be after she left her husband. "I had to get to the point where I had to make the choice and that one day came and I left," she said, revealing that she told Bobby she was going out for sugar and "I never came back and I went to L.A. I made some moves and then I took [daughter Bobbi Kristina] with me to California."

She also revealed that she had been separated from Brown for some time before anyone knew that the two were divorcing. "I had left, but nobody really knew. [My daughter] saw enough — the spitting in the face was enough," she said. "I wasn't going to be in an unholy matrimony. I wanted it to stop at that point — the drugs and everything — and I wanted [the evil] out and I was praying hard and my mother stepped in and she said, 'Let it go.' You can't play [my mom] Cissy, and she said , 'I'm not giving you up.' "

Bobbi Kristina supported the decision to divorce and for her mother to get her life back on track. "I went to California — I got me a little home there in Laguna. I got with a counselor, my friend who just helps people," she recalled, adding that eventually her daughter found out about Brown's exploits online.

"She was like, 'Mom, this is dad?' And I was like, 'Yeah, OK [it is].' And she saw him [with the other women] and just crazy things. She said, 'No, divorce him. Just let him go.' She said, 'You don't deserve that and neither do I.' "

Houston shared that she quit using drugs, but that every day is a struggle. "I mean, don't think I don't have desires for it," she said. "There are times when it takes a minute to cleanse, get off me — I have to pray it away. I have a drink every now and then ... don't get me wrong — that was not an issue for me. Oprah, one day at a time. Right now, no [I don't want drugs]. If ever I get low, I get weak, I know where I can go. I know where I can run to. And I know that God loves me. He loves me. I love the spirit of God so much. I'm not trading that for nothing."

She also knew she'd never trade in her career. Even at her lowest, she always knew that she had it in her to keep going and make music again. "You know what for some reason, Oprah, I never got to that point — something always had a fight in me," she said. "I always had a fight in me."